allow myself to excuse myself
for both the confusing and hastily put together (but earnest, genuine, and heartfelt - there is a nub of a thought there) last post and delay since then, but i was busy inadequately and quite failingly attempting to help something of a close friend through a bad time.
empathy sucks, most especially when combined with other qualities, like eager overachievement, the middle child syndrome of trying to please everyone, and a dose of haughty conceit. the want to help and the feeling of knowing what is right is a bad combination, at least in my book. far better than not wanting to help or not having a clue, but it just makes me feel like a dick.
vague, i know. but what have i learned in this week? on the personal level, self-sufficiency and dependence are large issues in lives. they require a delicate balance in that fragile college-to-post-college existence of old homes and new homes colliding.
